Tears of Mine

Tears are falling endlessly like waterfalls from heavens sky

The rain gathers all together in the desert where I wonder why

It took so long but at long last I spread my wings and learned to fly

Tears of sadness and of joy a mixture of these days gone bye

I smile while I softly weep it comforts me like homemade apple pie

Sunny days and dark filled nights that separate my conscious thoughts

I dream of purple lullabies that sing the songs my mother taught

With lovely little lady bugs which wear precious pendant on their dots

I sit atop a mountain peek with rainbow colored lollipops

My face appears and it is clear that all this time it is me I sought

Glowing amber majesties surrounds my being with a million smiles

And all the while my love and happiness begins to thrive and form a pile

Miles high into the sky and my tears of pain and joy I comprehend were just a test and trial

I can see my face again I take the world in with smile so new and versatile

That now my love can finally dial up to me and you will see that waiting was all worthwhile

Destroying me

Sometimes I would just rather be,

Not me!

Not I…

Sometimes I would just rather die

It is hard enough to love myself

So why would anybody else?

I am afraid it is me,

It is me—it is just me

No one else—just me

My fault

My Burden

My fate

I am the problem

The trouble

The cause of my pain

What have I become?

Transform?

I wish I would

But I never could

And I never will

Only I

A very lonely guy

Look and see

I too bleed and breathe

And I can feel my heart beat

Although

I do not think that I am actually really alive

I am the problem

I am broken

Today :)

I hope that this day—today

Treats you better than any day before in every single way

And everything you do and everything you say

Today; is the day!



Breathe in the day with a deep gasp

And exhale the past

Because today is your day

You own this point in time and space

Make a decision to seize the day, post-haste



Laugh until you shed a tear

Hold a loved one near and dear

Sing the words you want the world to hear

Smile, because today is the day



Live your life and let love

Give and you shall receive thereof

We can all be one

Today is the greatest day you have yet to realize

Rise up—today is your day, up up and away




If it so happened to be that today

is not the day

there is always tomorrow

When I Die

Someday I will most certainly die

I hope today is not my day to bid you goodbye

If it is, then I am—I am ready to meet the sprit in the sky

Who can know when the time is to be, I cannot say

Hopefully I will be in a ripe old age with a book on a page that reads

"Everything will be okay"

Or to sacrifice my being for the life of another is a gift I can present

I would die for a chance to let you live and anything else I can give

All I ask of you is to please not lament

What if tragedy were to occur

I would prefer to survive long enough to kiss you goodbye

The fade away to a blur

Never could I foresee suicide as a means to an end

Then again—I never said

Is there such a thing as heaven or hell?

I cannot confirm nor deny

Never been, never seen

All I know is when I die bury me and plant a tree

So I can still feel a cool summer breeze

1+1=2

When I wake up

I take up a moment

To remind myself

That everything will be alright

All day long

And all night

I try

I find myself

I smile

I laugh alone a while

I live

I love

I think of you

Thinking of me

And hopefully someday what could be

You and me

And it makes me smile

Makes me smile



In the meanwhile

I keep a smile

For miles

And miles

And miles

And miles

I breathe

I learn

I yearn for you

And your lovely smile

And it’s all worthwhile

Just to see you smile

See you smile



If I could see you smile

I know

I’ll grow

I believe

In me

I trust

In you

1+1 equals 2

And that makes me smile

Call on me

Let’s both see

How lovely

Life could be

If you just smiled for me

Misfit

I am just a misfit; please ask me if I care

I feel so ugly and alone as I drag this comb across my hair

I look at you staring back at me and I don’t know how to feel

I wish I had something more than this, to make things seem for real

I sense that I am not really here at least that is my fear

I wash my face and hope that I will somehow reappear

I am just a misfit; please ask me if I care

I feel the world is against me as I settle on what to wear

I can’t take any more of this, please make it go away

I need to find a reason why I take the time to stay

I want to feel alive again without having to ache

I want to feel alive again without having to fake

I am just a misfit; please ask me if I care

I take a long deep breath and say a final prayer

I look outside and see the sunrise for me one final time

I know the sun has set on me but I finally feel sublime

You never asked me if I cared

I care more than you were ever aware

Now it’s too late

Fine

I lie when you ask me

Almost every time

About everything

I sigh when I’m breathing

And I don’t know the reason why

I try not to breath

I cry just so I can feel

I smile just to hide

It hurts but it works

I try but I fall short

I collapse and stay down

I frown on the ground

I died if you knew me

I am gone but I am still here

I need you to need me

Sunshine

Did you know that it rains every time you cry?

I can feel you weep from miles away

It hurts me down deep inside to see the clouds so gray

I however relish the pain

I like watching the puddles gather rain

And you are the reason why

It not that I like to see you cry

It is that I love to see you live

And I would give anything to never see it rain again

Sunshine

Did you know that your smile makes the sun shine?

I can see you smile from miles away

It makes my day that much better

Just take a look at the beautiful weather

A smile you provide to blanket all of mankind

It is the world that you remind

be serene

Be kind

I love to see the sunshine

Sunshine

The Cold

Through my coat

Through the layers

Through my skin

All the way to my bones

“Shut your mouth!”

All I heard

A cause for concern

Oh my word

Did the cold just demand?

Did the cold just command?

Did the cold just demean the man that I am?

This coldness has seeped in through the seals

And proceeded to conceal

Any trace

Of my family jewels

So alone here I stand

No more than a toddler

No more than a man

Oh woe is me

Woe is me

                Never mind

                                 Ever noticing

Feel me whisper

                        By no means

                                            Hear me blister

Feel me cry

                 In due time

                                  Hear me lie



My place is so unclear

My appearance is so austere

My feelings are so sincere

One thought—Persevere

Sally's Song (nightmare Before Christmas)

I sense there's something in the wind

That feels like tragedy's at hand

And though I'd like to stand by him

Can't shake this feeling that I have

The worst is just around the bend

And does he notice my feelings for him?

And will he see how much he means to me?

I think it's not to be

What will become of my dear friend?

Where will his actions lead us then?

Although I'd like to join the crowd

In their enthusiastic cloud

Try as I may, it doesn't last

And will we ever end up together?

No, I think not, it's never to become

For I am not the one